You know how sometimes you catch a glimpse of what you’re actually doing, and it finally registers in your head? I did that recently. I still struggle with yelling at my children at times. Too many times. Daily, if I’m being honest. And recently, I really heard myself and saw what it looked like to my kids, and I decided I’m finished with yelling.
I’ve tried so many times in the past to quit yelling, and honestly, it’s something that I’m conscious of all the time. I never intend to do it. It just comes out – an explosion of my feelings and frustration, and once it comes out, I can’t take it back.
I’m tired of trying and failing and trying more and failing more, so I’m just plain putting an end to it. No more yelling. Period. My voice will be at an acceptable level and will reflect love and grace to my children at all times. I’m all about giving myself grace (it’s a long, hard lesson I’ve learned), but I think I’ve been using it as an excuse to not really be in control of my attitude and emotions.
I know that this journey is going to be incredibly difficult, but I also know that it will be so incredibly worth it. I know that this commitment is going to pay huge rewards in my relationship with my kids, our family dynamic and how I feel about myself, and I can’t wait to see the pay off. But one step at a time – I have to make it through Day 1 first. I’m going to let you guys follow my journey here on my blog and on Facebook.
Will you take the plunge with me? Leave a comment here or on Facebook letting me know that you’re making the 30-day commitment with me and we’ll do it together!